hey everybody i haven't written in here in a while! hahah i just wanted to say i love jesus and i miss you all. i was just randomly sitting it church, well not randomly because i rather enjoy it, and god told me that i was being taken care of and i really felt that. i've always believed it but i've never felt it before and it made me really happy! like seriously it seems like pretty much everything in my life right now is slightly to massively screwed up, heavy on the massively, and i realized that i really don't care at all like i'm not troubled at all i love my life more than, idk, life! haha. thats a good feeling really you should all try it its the most amazing feeling in the world to feel completely and utterly peaceful when you know that your life is in the hands of the most loving intelligent solid undefeatable being in the universe. seriously y'all jesus loves you like more than the human mind can comprehend, i'm sure thats part of th reason why the world turns away from it. there was a time that i never thought about that at all and now its the only truth i know. life is so perfect. i love the plan for my life even though i don't know it i just know its perfect like so freaking beautifully perfect it makes me want to cry. even though this should be one of the most disturbing parts of my life so far, i feel more peaceful and alive and in harmony than i could ever imagine and i just want to scream THAAAANNNNNKKK YYYYOOOUUUU!!!! and you know what, i love people. people are so cool. yes they make mistakes but who am i to talk i screw up everyday of my life. i just love people. can i just hug you now? dude lets do get some smoothies and talk about what anime character we're gonna marry. i always enjoy it when i get a straight answer although that seems to be rare its what i live for. EPIC WAS SO HARDCORE INTENSE LEGIT SUPERSONIC CALABUNGA DUDE!! i'm a little bummed that this is my last epic until next year but ah man so much truth. i love the truth. i just love it when someone comes up to me and says something incredibly honest i don't even care what it is most of the time. like at my church, everytime you meet someone there it feels like you've meet a long lost brother or sister that you've loved your intire life and didn't know about it. my heart feels so full of family i love them all so much and you should join it! i just want to talk to someone about this stuff like AHH you must believe what reason have i ever given you people to not believe me ahahahha. idk that was probably a stupid question. anyway yay thank you jesus!

Matthew 16:25 "For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.

maybe i'm not the same person you knew before but this verse is so true. the only way we can really find our true born selves is to give it all to god. thats how we were designed, in his imagine, so if we aren't living that out how can we be true to our selves, and that doesn't mean boring!!! GET UP AND DANCE FOOL! HAHAHAHAHAH everything you do or say or idk, breathe! it feels so good i feel like i finally know myself and i love it. everyone wants to rebel, but everyone is doing the same thing! i don't care wheather you're a punk prep goth nerd or WHat! aren't you SICK of the world?? what will the world ever give to you!? i never got nothing but pain and suffering i don't know about you. i guess god gave us life and he's the only one that can restore it after the world has ripped our guts out and turned them into shishcabobs! what a wonderful thing! i feel like a giddy kid. yyyaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. someone should totally talk to me if this is remoting interesting to them. i love talking to people i love to share this love there is more than enough to fill everyone's soul 4958734 times! all we need are some people to stand up for rightousness!!! God only needs a few to change the world! thats what's wrong with the world today no one's standing up for whats right and true! we're all deceived by what we see in religion and the world. lying hypocrites! i don't stand for religion i stand for jesus! he was hardcore and said the same thing cause he really cares! i don't serve a dead god i serve a living speaking god that changes my life and other's every day and second. i want to live the fullest and the best i can be for god screw the world! screw sin and the devil he can go cry in the corner he's the only one i truely hate! so you can ask questions if you want, yea even if no one cares i still care and i'm always here i love y'all no matter what! you can think i'm a psycho all you want. hasta lavista..bebe.